it's easy to...

...miss something that you're not looking out for.

why am i so kan cheong about all this?

am listening to james morrison's "you give me something"...

you only stay with me in the morning
you only hold me when I sleep
<don't know how these first two lines are relevant>
i was meant to tread the water
but now I've gotten in too deep

for every piece of me that wants you
another piece backs away

you give me something
that makes me scared alright
this could be nothing
but I'm willing to give it a try
please give me something
because someday I might know my heart

you only waited up for hours
just to spend a little time alone with me
and I can say I've never bought you flowers
i can't work out what they mean

i never thought that I'd love someone
that was someone else's dream

you give me something
that makes me scared alright
this could be nothing
but I'm willing to give it a try
please give me something
because someday I might call you from my heart

but it might be a second too late
and the words that I could never say
are gonna come out anyway

you give me something
that makes me scared alright
this could be nothing
but I'm willing to give it a try
please give me something

you give me something
that makes me scared alright
this could be nothing
but I'm willing to give it a try
please give me something
because someday I might know my heart


ah, i feel so foolish. really...but i suppose i don't care. i'm just gonna vent it here. i need to reflect. a friend was telling me that this is good for me. it means that i'm alive again. if this is only fleeting, then i pray that it fleets away fast. cos i don't wanna know what price i'm gonna have to pay for this. but if it's not...how would i know? hahaha do i want to know?

i feel like laughing at myself because dah kantoi! hahahahahahaha (i must learn how to put my posts on private mode) hahahahaha arghh...hahahahaha

ok, that was good. i mean, i had a good laugh although it was at the expense of myself.